While her husband was on a business trip, my younger daughter and her newborn son came to stay with us. What a joy it was to meet each morning through the wide-eyed wonder named Luke.
At five weeks he has already changed so much. Beginning to shake off the sleepy cloak that wraps a newborn’s mind, he is alert for longer periods during the day (and regrettably for his parents, during the night as well.) When he is awake, his arms and legs engage in a constant stationary dance to music only he can hear.
This morning as he lay beside me on the couch pumping his tiny arms and legs, I began to whisper in his ear. Occasionally he would fix his eyes on me and seem to be soaking in every syllable.
“I love you Luke. You are so beautiful. And even though you really don’t understand how much I love you, it doesn’t change the fact that I do.”
It is doubtful that he understood a word of what I said, but my voice still commanded his momentary attention.
Sometimes I am just like baby Luke. When God calls me, my response involves thrashing around in a crazy stationary dance. Stuck on the couch looking up at the ceiling lights, neither moving backwards or forwards, my is mind running wild.
What if I fail?
What will people think?
How can I accomplish something so far outside my comfort zone?
Then I remember the promises of God.
I remember that Romans 8:31 says if God is for me, then who can be against me? And according to 1 Thessalonians 5:24, if God has called me to it, then God will see me through it.
When I’m stuck on the brink of a land flowing with milk and honey, tempted to retreat to Egypt, I can go forth in the confidence that God’s love lies ahead and behind me. Whether or not I believe the promises doesn’t change God.
He remains the same.
The only change is in me when I respond to His promises with faith and love. So when I am faithless and fretful I must listen closely for Holy Spirit’s truth.
The lovely reminder He whispers in my ear.
“I love you Anne. You are so beautiful. And even though you don’t understand how much I love you, it doesn’t change a thing.”